I've been eluding to an issue I'm dealing with. It involves my family and a decision that has been left up to me to make. I have been in agony because of the pressure I've been feeling to make this decision soon. Honestly the pressure to make the decision has handicapped me and I just don't feel capable of making any decision in this condition. I'm actually meeting with a therapist next week to help me figure this thing out. I know a therapist can't make a decision for me, but I'm hoping she can help me clear some of the fog.
I was talking to a friend yesterday. He's got decisions to make too except he's under the gun and has almost no time. I went to yoga following our conversation and something you hear in yoga a lot is encouragement to find space. To create space where maybe there isn't any. I think that's what I need to do here... create space. So that's what I'm doing. I'm giving myself more time to decide. I usually avoid taking time like this because I'm afraid I'm procrastinating, but I don't think that's the case here. I need to clear my head and then make the best possible decision.
Tomorrow morning I'm leaving for a girls weekend in Breckenridge. I think this couldn't come at a better time. I am planning on posting from the trip. I initially thought it would be difficult to be writing now. However, the experience has been quite the opposite. It feels good to be writing again.