Two of Anna Nicole Smith's diaries from the early 1990's were made available by the Associated Press yesterday and are to be auctioned off in a few weeks. The diaries include insights on her struggles with food, her use of drugs, and her deep love for her then-husband, J. Howard Marshall II.
On her weight
"I've been really stressed out lately and depressed and I can't quit eating. I feel like a pig."
On meeting Paul Marciano, CEO of Guess
"O my Gosh!! Paul Marsiano called today to see if I got his books also I'm gonna go to San Antonio to do photo shoot. I'm so excited!! I can't believe this. This could be it." The entry ends with five smiley faces.
**On buying $3,000 worth of clothing at Neiman Marcus **
"I'm so happy they look great. I hope it empresses Paul Marsiano. ... I'm starving!! I've been starving myself."
On June 13, 1992, she wrote that she was hung over and watched a movie at home, adding that she "Took a Zandrex!"
On J. Howard Marshall, who was 63 years older than her
"Howard has been buying me som jewelry but he call me 15 or 20 times a day it drives me crazy. I love him but he aggravates me somtimes. I don't no what to do about Paul hes strange guy. I hate for men to want sex all the time." The entry ends with the word "Chow!" written in large letters and underlined.
More on J. Howard Marshall
"Hes so very weak and fragile When I touch him Im afraid he might break. If Jesus desides to take him I dont no what I'll do. I love him so much it hurts me to site and watch him when hes hurting I just want to hold him touch him let him no how much I care."
It's kind of amazing but she sounds like she legitimately loved J. Howard Marshall II. At least I think that's what she was trying to say. It's hard to make sense of her words. I know it's unfair to pick apart a private diary, but if you told me this was written by a 9-year-old I'd suggest getting them some private tutoring.